Silently speaking in volumes
I can no longer stand
Scream if you must
But the words don’t matter
Like before… like now…
Dead feelings always there
Like before… like now…
The feeling won’t go away
Silently speaking in promises
I no longer want to hear
Hit me if you must
But the pain doesn’t matter
Not like before… not like now…
Dead feelings always there
Not like before… not like now…
The feeling won’t go away
Silently speaking in reasons
I can no longer find
Beg if you must
But the words don’t matter
Like before… like now…
Dead feelings always there
Like before… like now…
The feeling won’t go away

Begging and pleading… with teeth on concrete…

Going mad… sitting here doing nothing
Growing mad… all alone…
Spinning in circles…
Just to end up right back here
Spinning and spinning…
Until there is no end…

It only gets darker from here…

Listening to everything I have to say
Sinking feeling a hope for it to go away
If this is the end… I’m not feeling it…
Took too much… more than I should…
Knew listening to my thoughts
Would have only lead me to this
It was only a matter of time
Days… minutes… weeks… hours… years…
Until all this would come to an end
Heard everything everyone ever had to say
Sickening feeling a hope for them to go away
If this is the end… I’m not feeling it…
Took in too much… more than anyone should…

Fighting to find the words… for feelings that I don’t even have… keeping up with a schedule… that doesn’t mean anything to anyone except for me… Is only making this feeling… sink in deeper… Wasting time… one minute… one sentence… one word… at a time…